Alexis is 3 weeks old today! I can’t believe it. This whole having a baby thing really puts you into some kind of time warp.
Yesterday, Alexis was awake and alert more than usual. Then she slept for almost 5 hours last night, which was a wonderful thing for her very tired Mama. Today, she seemed pretty sleepy. I wonder how sleep will go tonight.
Most nights, we’ve tried to comfort her when she seems upset and then put her to sleep in a bassinet next to our bed. This has largely resulted in one of us needing to be up for her to have someone to sleep on, because she couldn’t seem to settle down in her bed. When I mentioned her fussiness to the pediatrician, she asked what happens if we let her cry it out. I couldn’t answer that, because we hadn’t let her cry it out. So this week, we’ve tried putting her to bed in her own crib and letting her cry a bit, which made me feel like the worst parent ever. But after about 10 or 15 minutes, she settles down and sleeps well, better than she was sleeping when we were constantly holding her.
I still hate watching her cry on the monitor for those 15 minutes, though. Tonight, I put her to bed earlier than usual, when she was getting sleepy after eating, and without tears. I hope the tears don’t come later, when she wakes up alone in her bed. Seriously, look at this tiny little girl alone in her big bed.
She needs snuggles and love and the bassinet right next to her mommy. Or maybe that’s what I need.