I haven’t had a real case of insomnia in a long time. I stick to a relatively regular bed time, and I usually sleep well. When I was struggling with insomnia on a regular basis, it was due to a lot of stress going on in my life and my inability to “turn my brain off” and stop thinking at bedtime. Thanks to my doctor’s ingenious recommendation of a cocktail of melatonin, valerian root, and Tylenol PM, I made it through that difficult time. In fact, I learned that melatonin and valerian root were enough to put me to sleep successfully almost always without the Tylenol PM. And they never left me groggy or feeling weird in the morning, and I was never addicted to them. Once I eliminated the source of my anxiety, I slept just fine on my own.
So tonight, it’s 1:33 a.m. and I’m writing this blog post. This is problematic, because my bedtime is 10:00 p.m. and and need to get up for work by 7:30 a.m. at the very latest. I’m already thinking how terrible that’s going to make tomorrow. I’d love to reach for good old reliable melatonin, but I don’t know if that’s safe, so no drugs for me. Instead, I decided that laying in bed wasn’t productive, and I’m hoping some time in front of the computer will help me quiet my mind.
In other news, I had my blood drawn today for a confirmatory pregnancy test. And since it’s a holiday week, I’ll probably have to wait until Monday for the “official” results. I’m not very concerned though. I’m having some pretty lame symptoms that can’t possibly mean anything other than pregnant. All that stuff that celebrities always claim about pregnancy making you feel wonderful… yeah, I’m starting to suspect they are lying.